On the boat. Heading off island for my big (?) trip. No one knows where I will be going or what I’ll be doing. Not even me. But the suspected itinerary is:
Tomorrow I am taking off for Seattle. I am visiting Bastyr University even though I doubt I will be attending that school in the near future. However, when I booked the trip, I was sure I would go there (desperate for a plan/ purpose).
Then I will make my way down the coast, probably by amtrak train. It goes along the coast. Beautiful?!
But August 28th I think I will land at Green Gulch Farm for a guest student stay. That is a stay you do if you’ve applied for an apprenticeship as this Zen Center (I did: for a cooking apprenticeship). You see if you like it there and they see if you are a good fit (meaning no major sleep or psychotic disorders and you are not super disruptive…hmmm…curious what will come up given I’ve been on a roller coster of emotional highs and lows and sleep has been a major issue for me in the past….oh 20 years. Not really, mostly just the last year and a half).
My mantra on this trip: Allow for the clarity to come to me. I will allow for the clarity.
What does that actually mean? It means I won’t get stuck or down on myself thinking that I am not OK if I don’t decide right this instant what I want to do for the next five years of my life, or even one year. I know that may sound slackerish. But the truth is, I just don’t know. That’s why I am going on this trip to begin with. For that reason, and to spend all my savings.
Ciao for now!